June 25th, 2010

hope you choke

{wishing the bathwater clean, she hides in the back and is unseen}

my ex, Eddie(sexual assualt), decided to message and try to add me on facebook.

just seeing his face again,
was awful.
why won't he just go back to fucking arizona and stay his ass there?!

I blocked him,
deleted the message.

"I'm sorry if you felt that my kisses hurt you."
fuck you.
I don't owe you anything,
not an explantion or a chance.


2 years ago,
he woke up a bloody,
horrible slew of memories,
and triggered a break down which caused most to leave.

I will never return to that place ever again.

I'm at a low atm.
more memories are approaching,
my stress always brings flashbacks.

and now I must keep dispair from overwhelming me.

maybe I'll start looking for therapy a little earlier.
I was planning to start when I started school,
in september.

I don't know....